Good Morning Beauties!
Wow, so April happened. It happened fast, too! I had such high hopes to return to blogging in March (I planned out the whole month full of posts), but sadly I didn’t post one thing during the entire month 🙁
However, it’s all with good reasons I promise!
I FINALLY finished applying to Graduate School and GUESS WHAT?! I GOT IN! I’m so beyond excited and so thankful that I was given this opportunity. I will be attending my number 1 choice school in Boston to pursue a Dual Degree in Children’s Literature (MA) and Library and Information Science (MS). I can’t believe it!
So I’m officially a Librarian-in-Training!!
Recently, I’ve done A LOT of thinking about my future and where I saw myself in the time to come. I have been torn so long with what I really want to do with my life. I want to do so many things, but nothing really seemed to work out or call to me extremely strongly. I felt like I could fall into anything and be okay with it. I seem to adapt like that a lot. But then there was this kind of “light bulb” moment that happened in December of 2013. I was currently working two jobs, one of which was at Barnes and Noble. I was a cashier at the time and we were hosting a book fair for an elementary school in the area. The school rep/moderator asked me and a co-worker to watch her young daughter real quick while she unloaded her car. So I sat down with the daughter and read with her one of the Pete the Cat books we had behind the counter and I just knew–this is what I wanted to do. I wanted to share my love of reading with others; encourage young/beginner readers; and help grow literacy and the love of books/reading. I wanted to become a Librarian — the keepers and sharers of knowledge and adventure.
Of course, even though I had this somewhat “inspired” moment that did not mean I acted on it right away or even realized what it was at first. It took another year of working in Marketing and doing some more “soul searching” to recognize that I had been holding on to that moment for a while. I kept coming back to it and remembering how sure I had felt when the idea of being a librarian entered my mind. By the time 2015 hit, I decided that this year was going to be focused on balance and risk–balance of my mind, body and spirit while taking risks to achieve this and my overall happiness.
My first risk was telling my parents that I wanted to apply to Grad School or move to NYC to pursue getting a job there in the summer (in which I would have to quit my full-time job to do either). The second risk was telling my friends (who wanted to move into a house together) that I was hoping to pursue these options and might not be able to move-in with them in the Fall of 2015. My final risk was moving forward and actually applying to Grad School. It took me the whole month of February to gather the materials and apply by the March 1 deadline.
Somehow I did it. I applied–reached outside of my box and the path of uncertainty that felt safest to continue on and I made a change. I made a choice and I took a risk. Now I couldn’t be more happy or excited!
I had tons of support along the way and I am so thankful for that!! I know there are going to be hard times along this journey, but I’m going to do my best to get through them. Doubt has already creeped into my mind about this decision, but I won’t let the fear disguised as doubt rule my decision on this. I know that this is what I want to do. If I don’t get there right away, I’m okay with that. As long as I keep pursuing my ultimate goal and trying to make it happen, I’ll be happy 🙂
Thank for reading this crazy long reason as to why I haven’t been blogging the past month or two. i’ve been caught up in a lot of emotions and stress over this decision and my choice to pursue Grad School and this new career path. I’m thankful to all of you who continued to peak in on my blog, read my posts, follow me on Insta or Twitter or Bloglovin’. You are all AMAZING!! And I hope you all realize how much appreciate your support as well! 🙂
Now with this whole story said, I do want to try harder at remaining consistent with my postings. I have to get back on to a schedule and stick to it! Book Blogging is one of my passions, so I need to give it the time it deserves. I know there will be days and even weeks that I don’t want to step near the computer or even pick up a book (*DON’T LOOK, I didn’t just say that…), but I’m going to do my best to push through because in the end, this blog is what I love. Reading is what I love and sharing these books and thoughts with you is something I cherish having the ability to do each day.
So yeah: Read More! Blog More! Be You More! — that about sums up this post 🙂
Hugs and Love to You All!!
P.S. All these wonderful GIFs are from Giphy.com!